ten minutes

i'm a little tired, a little overwhelmed with my workload, and a little annoyed at my own 8-5 malaise. But it's really the smells in my office that forced me to go for a walkabout. burnt popcorn, strangely sauced chicken, and other unidentifiable undertones.

thing is - it's impossible to go for an uninterrupted walk around here. even if i hide my badge, and try to look like a visitor. wanted to go out to view park where the wind blows everything away (numbs my nose) and the view of the Sound is pretty incredible no matter what the weather is doing. today i didn't make it that far. but that's because i knew what would happen. i think i wanted the pinch of humanity on my brain more than i wanted view park today. so i kept my badge on.

people looking for radiology. like the cute 20 something girl, who when i was walking her over, started crying and confessing her terrible news. was just told she had cancer and she was alone at the hospital. i wanted to hug her and sit with her. instead i smiled and feebly promised people here are amazing, and they really care. i hope i wasn't lying. the group of vampire punks with incredible facial piercings trying to shock me by asking really loud where the std clinic was, "yah, the hepititis clinic." i walked 'em over and dropped them off. wished i still had my eyebrow piercing for a minute. the woman who took my elbow asking me where the Emergency Room was. said he was just flown here. i didn't know who he was. she was so distraught. so i walked her to the emergency room and felt like crap because i know they have to wait forever. and then i escaped.
if you have a badge on you have to escape from the emergency room. everyone wants you to help them in impossible ways or, at the very least, tell you their life story. i don't even work in patient care. ah helplessness. i get that a lot here.
now for the warm fuzzies. i'm going to meet with the volunteer department. they're putting on a holiday party for the underserved youth (patients here) and i'm going to try to help. arts n crafts - for 1000 kids with no budget. hopefully one of the stores will donate a little something.
more later...